Letter 36
02 / JAN 2023
Henlo Friends,
How are ya, now?
Oh me, not s’bad. Mercury must be in the microwave again because damn i’ve been in my feelings all week. I haven’t been able to shake off the sads or the anxiety in like two weeks, and it’s kind of really annoying.
Here’s some stuffs I thought I’d share with ya this week, Ferda.
I hiked three different trails with Kuma last week. One of the days, I spent the day hanging out with three of my favorite goodest boys. Yes, it includes the man i’ve been heart eyes about for months already. We did a little hike to some big ass waterfall in Mt Baldy, had a few beers at a brewery nearby, and i got food poisoning from some bomb ass birria at the food truck that was there. It really sucks being in the friend zone most days, but man that dude just makes me melt.
I started writing long form again (thanks for the inspiration Omar!). I’ve hid it behind a pay wall because it is still too personal for me to share for free with people who are not my friends. I’m not ready yet. But if I know you in real life and you enjoy long reads for chisme (10-15 min maybe), you can reply to this and let me know you’re interested. I’ll let you in without the paywall. Last week, I wrote about my experience with ghosting a narcissist lol
Lala’s cousin Dipsy started arguing in the hotel room with her boyfriend, Po. Lala wasn’t sure what it was this time, but I guess pretending to continue to sleep seemed like a good idea to not get involved. In the midst of arguing, for some reason, Dipsy laid down next to Lala and got on her phone. Lala shrugged and tried to go back to sleep. Po then yells “Are you seriously cheating on me right now?”. Lala kept her eyes closed knowing damn well what he meant; she’d been covering for Dipsy for a while. Dipsy yells leave me alone and tries to kick Po in the face. This probably happened slower than she expected because Po straight up blocked the kick, took her foot, and threw it on the bed which caused Dipsy to fall on top of Lala. “This is so awkward”, Lala whispered as she got up to go back to sleep on the other hotel bed.
Bro, withdrawals suck. I mean i’m not experiencing some Requiem for a Dream type shit but I have been itching. I’ve become that guy who asks to get a hit of your vape when i see you bring it out >_> don’t judge me.
I recently finished this short book called Lying. This was my biggest take away.
If you think you can handle the heaviness of the reality of this movie, i highly recommend watching The Whale. I watched it in theatres last week. Me, my homie, and the random dude next to me were unable to hold back our tears. That was the first movie in a long time that made me ugly cry. It’s so damn good.
Here’s a favorite photo i’ve taken since the last spam mail. Ok, so i didn’t take this photo. But i mean, CMON!! I’ve said it before and i’ll say it again, what’s better than one good boi? (The real answer here is not two, it’s three ;) )
Yeah so,
Being moody makes me feel less like myself, so I probably have to figure this out before I start hurting my own feelings again lol
Until next time-
Sign me up for he long form form writing Please and thank you! where, where where? Am I in it now? am i the long form writing manifested? On a serio note, hope you beat up the microwave. Let me know if you need anything.